Butterflies

In september I'm back off to Uni, something that's been on my mind for a long time because for me next year will probably determine what way I'm going with life. Last year was fun for all the dossing about and stuff but thankfully I did learn something important, that in itself was life changing to an extent, Journalism is not for me.

So next year I'm taking Film Studies and Creative writing. Now in a way I don't know where I'm going with this entry or perhaps I know where I'm going but there will be absolutely no flow to it. What I want to be in the future is a writer, I think I'm sure of that. The one thing I can do is write, I can play with words when I put my mind to it. Yet what I'm frightened of is that now I no longer have a definite career choice other then "writer" which covers such a wide area, what on earth am I going to do. It's definitly the thing that worries me most of all, I have no direction anymore nothing to aspire to, just that I might be a writer.

 Further more if come December I realise University isn't for me, then what?

When I first started this blog, I loved writing in it, I'd be thinking what should I put in it next or that would be well good to put on my blog. When I wrote it just came out naturally, now I have no such luck. It's now taxing to write anything, I'm a writer with no rythm or no creative output.

Right now I feel like I'm going nowhere at a high speed, that my future is going to be a medicore existence within myself on a psychiatrists chair telling them why I'm a failure and I got absolutely nowhere in life.

 I dunno why I even wrote this? 
24.7.06 02:08
 


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araba / Website (24.7.06 18:04)
 Well.

You don't need to worry about what you're going to do with it AFTER uni. Also, even though you've not pigeonholed yourself, the fact that you can write means you can actually do most writing jobs. If that makes sense.

There's always something to do.


Scary Rob / Website (6.8.06 00:56)
 Maybe the reason you wrote it was because you can?

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